That feeling when you want nothing more than to go outside into the sun and socialise with all your friends, but instead what comes over is that feeling off emptiness.
The feeling of being alone while also wanting nothing more than to be with everyone at once but your brain is fighting and telling you to be alone. To sleep and eat until it feels okay again. To exercise and take all that stress away.When feeling like the entire weight of the world is on your shoulders while you are also not accomplishing anything, because you don’t know what the world has install for your life but you’re also too scared at once.I’ve been feeling all these things far too much lately and no afternoons of binging Netflix or eating cheesecake can fix it, and when I sit with my friends feeling like they’ll make me feel high again I want to go home and not speak to anyone.But why, why do I feel like this and why does this happen. Embrace how you feel its natural, but don’t let it take over and control the person you are.
I wrote this little piece on a gloomy day where my brain has gotten the better of me, it happens to everyone but tomorrow is a brighter day,
Lots of love,