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One day at a time

April 24, 2019

Today is like any other day in reality. Wake up, work, walk the dog, spend time with friends. Nothings really changed over the weekend to have enhanced my desire to run as far away as possible. But it is an impending mood today.

If I look at my life currently, everything is going very swimmingly.  I am incredibly lucky to be surrounded by the strongest women and the best-est of friends I could ask for, and work is going super well currently. So i guess you could argue I’m not allowed to feel anxious or sad today.

But in reality my brain is rattling with endless thoughts. I should be doing better, bigger and better. Better at being a friend, better at being an adult and more importantly better at being a bigger version of myself metaphorically and physically.

It doesn’t matter how well life could be going for me, I will always doubt myself. Although i am one to leave the past in the past it hasn’t helped to have had an impact on present me, and the constant thought of not being good enough. Constantly trying to be okay is hard work, because just when it is all comfortable I am waiting for the next wave of shit to strike.

Today’s mood is heavy with anti social-ness and the lack of confidence. Tomorrow will be a new day and a new mood, but I can’t help feel weakened every time a day like this stops by.

Lots of love,

Sophiemagsx

  • Reply
    vincenthinkingblog
    April 24, 2019 at 8:26 pm

    I too have these thoughts but self-doubt isn’t a true reflection of who we’re. Your pretty, strong, thoughtful and above all, you are you! Embrace it and those bad days know its a thought process not really a reflection of who you truly are x

    • Reply
      Sophiemagsblog
      April 24, 2019 at 8:34 pm

      aw thank you thats such a lovely comment! every now and then i think a down day is healthy so just feeeel things ya know?x

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        vincenthinkingblog
        April 24, 2019 at 8:39 pm

        Yup, we all get down days but sometimes it’s good just to remind us life is happening. X

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    crescentmoonramblings
    April 24, 2019 at 9:10 pm

    Oh Sophie, I hate it when those days swing around and cripple me. There seems no reason for it yet it happens and the desperate darkness and wish to withdraw is so very real. I feel for you. Thank you for sharing your story.

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    Hunida
    May 7, 2019 at 10:25 pm

    We are all allowed to feel anxious, babe. ♡ I know what you mean about feeling weakened by days like this, I get the same way. I hope you’ve made it over this bump now. ♡

    • Reply
      Sophiemagsblog
      May 8, 2019 at 11:21 am

      yes of course, feeling alot better now, thanks for a lovely comment and for stopping by 🙂 xxx

      • Reply
        Hunida
        May 10, 2019 at 5:42 am

        Aw happy to hear you’re feeling a lot better now <3

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